I try to start this blog over and over without much success. I have good intentions but life has always been too busy to spend much time writing. I will again try to post more often. It's funny how I think of this page when major events happen in my life. The last post was when I had to leave the job that I loved. I still miss that place and the people that worked there. Most everyday I find myself wishing that I could go back...when things were settled and happy. Not that I don't enjoy my job now but I miss the friends and the connections. It was like family.
Anyway, again I find myself with a major change in my life. The dreaded empty nest. In two days I will move my baby boy to college. My heart is sad but my brain is so excited for him. He will join his sister at OU. I am so happy that while they will be 2 1/2 hours from me, they will have each other close by. I think I have been dreading this day since my youngest was born 21 years ago. They are my world. Most of my identity is as their mom. Sure I have a terrific career, but my joy comes from the two people that own my heart and soul. For the purposes of this blog my son is "B" and my daughter is "D". D has been at OU for three years now. While it was painful for me to let her go I still had B at home and she came home often. I don't know why it feels so different this time.
We have had a fantastic summer. Vacation in Florida at Disney World and lots of family time since then. We truly enjoy being together. We are a tight family unit. Hubby and I have worked so hard to make sure that they know that they are the center of our world. I hope that we did enough. I hope that we taught them enough. I pray that they stay safe and make good choices. I hope that they know that whenever they need us we will always be here. We will always be their safe place.
So hopefully I can use this blog as a place to explore the changes. To let go of the fear and enjoy the journey. To document the changing family dynamic.
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